An essay of my feels + love letter to NEWS ♥

[addictdesu]

Today, I would like to express my innermost feelings as a fangirl. (but I’m not quite sure if it’s the innermost; I may never express it through writing alone.)

If being exaggerated is a trend, thank you NEWS.

Thank you for making the fans live again–by killing us bit by bit. The countdown (the epic countdown that made the Johnny’s net crash), NEWS BEST album (the historical album of your greatest hits that we’ll forever treasure), Chankapaana single (the awesome song which celebrates the new NEWS), and Utsukushii koi ni suru yo concert tour (the majestic concert that made/is making the whole fandom damn emotional). What else? All these and more that’ll come, NEWS, you are killing us. Expect us to die… Die of happiness.

Again, I repeat: if being exaggerated is a trend, then I’m proud (exaggeratedly) to be killed by NEWS.

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If being exaggerated is NOT a trend, I would still be proud of my (exaggerated) self.I am a NEWS fan. NEWSfans are such exaggerated creatures (creatures, because we’re not just people… We’re monsters and superheroes and drug lords and stars too). Others can never judge us; all the world knows what NEWS had been through. We cannot just be plain fans! We are exaggerated fan-creatures with BIG love, BIG support, BIG buckets (for our bucketful tears), and BIG whatsoever (insert-word-here-I-can’t-think-of-any-other) for our beloved group Four Directions NEWS. We are not just plain fans, we just cannot. If you’re not a NEWSfan but has stumbled upon this post, read NEWS’ history first or ask me (or any other NEWSfans) and we’ll tell you a lot–the Never Ending Wonderful Story that almost came to an end… Not just once, mind you. NOT JUST ONCE.

Anyway, what happened two days ago inspired me to write a letter (a love letter) to NEWS. I accidentally deleted it yesterday; couldn’t retrieve even a single word. I forgot almost all my thoughts, and I’m too lazy to recall those thoughts again. But after 2 days my heart and mind still haven’t calmed down; obviously, I’m writing again.

Dear NEWS,

Your tears spilling over,

my heart breaks.

But I’m happy to be one of those who made you cry,

for you are what makes me cry too.

In short, we are crying for each other, to each other…

And we don’t even know each other!

But that’s not the case.

Because you love me and I love you forever.
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You’ve been here for almost 9 years

minus two because of… uhm… yeah,

Thank you for not giving up on me!

Thank you for realizing that I’m still here, running to you, giving you a tight hug while saying “Okaeri!”

To be honest, I almost gave up too.

But I didn’t. I hoped. Your sweet “Tadaima!” is what I looked forward to.
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So thank goodness you’re home now,

you brought a lot of priceless treats.

Too many, I actually don’t know where to put all these.

But oh! My heart has a big space (you are the reason for that)

filled with things I’ll never erase

Right now I’m filling it again with your gifts,

the most precious N-E-W-S.
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Honey, you’re so much stronger now, aren’t you?

You came back lovelier.

Do you know that your comeback is very, very memorable?

Really, I couldn’t get over.

Standing still, watching your tears, I want to shout a promise.

“Never again you’ll shed tears of pain;

whenever you and me cry, it’s now because of happiness.”
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Happiness. Like what I feel today.

Thank you for giving me such wonderful feeling!

In return I’ll give you my most genuine smiles,

so come on, let’s make this beautiful love grow in full swing.
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I LOVE YOU, DEAR NEWS.

My love for you is incomparable.

Speaking of, you are like that ne? INCOMPARABLE.

…And we will be like this ne? INSEPARABLE.

約束するよ。

永遠に。

–With so much love in my heart, チャンカパーナ

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*feels*

*emotions*

Before I move on, I just wanna say that this is entirely different from what I wrote (and deleted ><) yesterday. And if you noticed, the letter above is in the form of a poem. But I don’t want to treat this a poem because a poem is something dramatic yet restricted; while a letter is simple yet sincere. I don’t want to be a drama queen (but seems like I am now LOL), so please regard this as just a simple love letter to NEWS.

Moving on… If being exaggerated is a trend, then count me in.

Can I ask you NEWSfans: Starting from 2 days ago, how many times did you cry? How many times did you flail, jumped, sang along, repeatedly reading and taking in updates, staring at the low quality pictures, watching low quality fancams, yet shouting and yelling like it’s the world end, and endlessly talking about how you feel? A fan is a fan… Much more a NEWSfan. If Tegoshi (and NEWS) believe that they can’t lose to any group when it comes to cherishing us fans, then I believe (and I’m sure you do) believe that NEWS fandom is the most emotional, humble, and strongest fandom… In all the world. (OMG I LOVE THE IRONIES. NEWS and NEWSfans are just… ♥)

Sounds exaggerated! Oh, If being exaggerated is not a trend, I don’t mind. I am a NEWS fan.

美しい恋にするね

美しい恋にするよ

美しい恋にするから

♥