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addictdesuThankfully, KARA is only my second fandom. I don't mean to love them less, I just don't love them more than my first one.
And that is why, thankfully, it doesn't hurt so much. Unfortunately, it worries me more. I think my love for them is challenged.
I don't have a bias in KARA. Advantage: I love the five equally. Disadvantage: I can't take it when my OT5 breaks. Which is happening.
So why with this post?
Today is January 16. Today, Nicole's officially out of the group.
I've prepared for this day. But still it pained. And what's more, Jiyoung finally came up with her decision... Guess what it is?
It is... To leave too.
I'm not blaming anyone. Or maybe I am? I blame destiny for me meeting KARA too late.
If I have loved them ever since, I know the cut will be deep. But maybe it is better than meeting them late and loving them late; because now it's too late. I've met and loved them them during their darkest era. Was there a happy memory? Of course there was. But the happiest memories were then, when I still wasn't into them. In short I have missed 5 or 6 years of my life.
I love KARA. But now I don't know where to hold on to. I am a Kamilia, but now I'm not even sure of that.
Again, thankfully, they're just my second fandom. Otherwise I'm now throwing things outside the window.
And that is why, thankfully, it doesn't hurt so much. Unfortunately, it worries me more. I think my love for them is challenged.
I don't have a bias in KARA. Advantage: I love the five equally. Disadvantage: I can't take it when my OT5 breaks. Which is happening.
So why with this post?
Today is January 16. Today, Nicole's officially out of the group.
I've prepared for this day. But still it pained. And what's more, Jiyoung finally came up with her decision... Guess what it is?
It is... To leave too.
I'm not blaming anyone. Or maybe I am? I blame destiny for me meeting KARA too late.
If I have loved them ever since, I know the cut will be deep. But maybe it is better than meeting them late and loving them late; because now it's too late. I've met and loved them them during their darkest era. Was there a happy memory? Of course there was. But the happiest memories were then, when I still wasn't into them. In short I have missed 5 or 6 years of my life.
I love KARA. But now I don't know where to hold on to. I am a Kamilia, but now I'm not even sure of that.
Again, thankfully, they're just my second fandom. Otherwise I'm now throwing things outside the window.
